UNSECURED.

I don't know why, but that feeling was just there and I can't stop it.

My each passing day without you make me feel like there's something wrong in my life. Being a girl that can't tell the world that she's in pain was the worst thing in my life. How can I tell you? You'll never understand. I don't really mind.I'm just asking and I'm hoping for nothing. Somehow please don't treat me like a trash. Shush! Shush! pula. Cakap baik-baik tak salah kan. 

Ohh how can I forget. I've no heart. My heart is no longer functioning right? But then thanks for those thing. Most adorable guy ever.

That's all for now. XOXO.

Te Odio!

I AM NOT HEARTLESS, I JUST LEARN HOW TO USE MY HEART LESS!

I still remember  the moment when you called me stupid.  Don't you remember how bad it was when you left me? I was crying like there's no tommorow. I felt like I've lost half of my life. Tell me what you do when you know that I'm crying? You just walked away like there's nothing happened! You're making all this harder. Seriously you did. 

Updating all those problems in your social network? Have you ever try to think back of what you've ever did to me. Do I really need to be nice? Do I need to be nice to someone who had called me stupid? Do I need to be nice to someone who treat me like fucking trash all day night? Do I need to be nice to someone that hurt me like he don't have a heart? Do I really need to respect someone who'd turn me to what I am right now? Do I need to be nice to someone who'd left without telling me why? Do I really need to be nice to someone who'd gradually treat other girls politely instead of me? Do I?

You're the one who taugh me how to be heartless. It's all on you if you don't want to walk away or anything. Did I text or call you for now? NEVER. Bear this in mind! It's good enough for me not to say something offensive to you. Because i don't hurt people for no reason. Some day you'll be in my shoes!

Trying to teach me how to be heartless? Stand still and I'll show you. I don't hate you and I'm not a liar as well when I say I don't want you to leave.

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, being curse by all those bad words, while the other doesn't remember the things they have been through and walked away like he did nothing wrong. If one day you walk around, whenever you see me with someone else, seeming like I'm having fun. Although he may be so cute, he may be a guy which a girl wish for, he's just a substitution because you're always my first choice.

That's all for now. xoxo.

DREAM GUY♥

I ain't looking for a perfect guy. You might not be my Mr Perfect, but probably you're my Mr Good Enough. Stop asking me why I choose you. When I said it's you, it means it's you. I don't have any specific reason.

♥ I love a guy with a dimple. Like seriously they look so freaking cute. Only if I can have one. Surprised to know that dimples are actually a muscle defect. Dimples may be genetically inherited and have been called a simple dominant trait.

♥ Please guys! Wear a proper clothes like chinos, deck shoes, sweater, shirt, khakis, folded-hand shirt or etc. What's up with all those hardcore clothes? You look weird. To be honest, what you wear do influence people impression on your personality and attitude. There's nothing wrong on being a bit tidy and neat.

♥ Not a MU fans! Please. If yes, then I guess you should find someone else. I mean it. Somehow, I'm just saying. I apparently can accept the stupidity, but not an obsession. Sorry. But that's the thing. *You can support other football team as well.

♥ I don't like muscular guy. Like seriously they look creepy to me. And you look weird when you're wearing your shirt man! I mean the arm part. The term muscle is derived from the Latin musculus meaning "little mouse" perhaps because of the shape of certain muscles or because contracting muscles look like mice moving under the skin. Gross much?

♥ Not a smoker. I don't want to be alone when you die because of cancer! I can't bear with another losing. So if you're a smoker, I ain't hesitate to say no. But it would be some exception. *If you know what I mean.

♥ Please have a clean shave baby. Seriously I don't like it. A man is called clean-shaven if he has had his beard entirely removed. I know some of the guys do look good with their unshaven beard and else, but still I ain't like it.

♥ Don't have any problem with cheese and chocolate. Even I know most of people in this earth are not going to say no to chocolate and cheese. Cheese is valued for its portability, long life, and high content of fat, protein, calcium, and phosphorus. Plus cheese also can help you to have a good sleep. *According to the research.

That's all for now. xoxo.

FATTY.

OHH! How great my life is treating me now. Well, I hope there's a recipe for getting you out of my head. Like seriously I need to. Sometimes I'm wondering why I'm being so stupid. It's weird when us girls usually ignore those boys who wants us and craving for those just don't.

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you love me and you'll never hurt me. Unfortunately, I was wrong.
Guess what? I now compare you to all guys and you know what? They never measure up and not even close.  And the sad thing is that some of them are probably and obviously better than you bit I just can't see it. Haha. What a silly me.

I shouldn't let you to enter my life in the first place. I'm a happy girl when I'm able to see you. Fatty, why did you look a bit thin? Are you on your diet or something? How are you doing now?

That's all for now. xoxo.

SAD SYASYA IS SAD.

Why it have to be so hard? Dear god, please be nice to me. I want to forget him as if he's never been in my life. I want to stop all this kind of feeling. I ain't sure wether time gonna heals everything easily or not. 


Keep on telling myself that this matter won't be long. My heart often said this "If you've fallen down, today is the day you can wake up and try again." But I'm just wondering if I'm strong enough to face the reality that he's not mine anymore. Being with him is the only thing that can make me smile in my bad day. How can I forget someone who's giving me a really big impact in my life? Someone please tell me!

Thinking of him is hard to stop, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept. But trust me with all the hurts that I've felt, letting go is the most painful for me.Try to be me for once, and then please tell me how does it feel.

I still remember the time when you told me that you can't stand seeing me sad, so when you hurt me and I'm crying did you close your eyes? You did close your eyes maybe. Telling me that you're different even the real fact is?

Everyone keep on telling me to move on. Someone please step forward and tell me how to move on!

That's all for now. xoxo.

MOVING ON.

I'm wondering why I keep on thinking about him.  I should've forget him now. I should be telling myself that he's leaving. FOREVER!

Don't cry over it. Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars. But what can I do if the tears can't stop? Put a plaster on my eyes? It's not as easy as talking to the door =.= I miss him. But there's nothing that I could do. 

Breaking up? It happens kind of suddenly. One minute, you're talking happily on the phone, and the next minute, you're lying on the floor crying and all the good CDs are missing. Like seriously it happened.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open you heart to. Like what I'm doing now.

Plus, I still remember when my teacher told me that there's a way to know whether we're a nice human being or not. How? It's when people around you're in a good life, you're being happy for them and didn't let the jealousy take the place. While when people around you are in trouble, you're crying for them. That how the human being should act. Even it's your enemies :)

NEW BLOG.

New blog for me. Imma be a happy girl soon. I HOPE SO. 

I guess this is my first entry for this blog since I've replaced it. My previous blog had been eliminate due to some reasons. Somehow, I'm gonna make it as before. I know it's kinda tough but atleast I'm trying. My previous blog was http://syasyaguduk.blogspot.com :)

That's all for now. xoxo.